Grace

Grace is available for free, anytime, anywhere. Grace enters, when allowed inside. By letting in Grace, it is extended to others.

M

What does the theory of the universe called? Some M. But what the M is, even those who gave the name don't know.

I was wondering what the 20 odd studs were doing? They were definitely from the police or the military but they weren't armed. It looked as if they were on the beach to cool off. I walked on and then saw their reason for being there. M didn't look into my eyes. The specs and the pony tail didn't affect my perception much..actually I'm so slow that if someone comes to me directly and introduced themselves, I would like to request them to allow me to take a walk to tally inside my brain. Ofcourse, that's only if it wasn't a matter of life or death. If it was, my reptilian brain automatically takes over.

String theory or M theory, the universe can make use of all the functionally efficient and effective to offset the inaction of cripples like me.

A paralytic

That's how I'm feeling. Atleast I'm getting in touch with the depths of me. If someone places a begging bowl next to where I lie down, the picture will be complete.

It's okay. Sickness is sweet sometimes.

Note to myself: Don't be depressed

It's said that sometimes people quit not knowing that they are almost there.

I'm not quitting my life but I think I'm going to quit writing the novel. There is not enough passion in me to do it. I just want to progress to the mode of goodness.

Patterns in life are sometimes interesting to come across, especially when they are positive.

Today, I saw a beautiful house getting destroyed. A house from a long lost heaven. I thought...there goes down another reminder of the old time.

There are many messages in the Bhagavad Gita. The first couple of messages are...'Don't be weak. Don't quit.'

Today I'm glad that I take just a single tablet of low dosage in the night, down from 9 once. I'm glad that the burning sensation in my body is gone.

Goodness is bland. The happiness from it is subtle and increases as the receptivity increases over time.

I'm wondering about my duty to others. Ofcourse, before that, I'm wondering how I can stand on my own feet.

My old doctor's clinic had a quote like this..."When it looks as if no one understands you, when it is difficult to even explain, remember God. He knows what you are going through and you needn't explain anything to Him."

The 5 things that I do daily

I have settled on these 5 things. Looks like it is stable.

1. Read a chapter from the Bhagavad Gita. (Jnana Yoga)
2. Read a chapter from the Sundara Kandam (Bhakthi Yoga)
3. Volunteer online for 1 hour (Karma Yoga)
4. Listen to the Vishnu Sahasranama (Dhyana Yoga)
5. Chant 54 times the Dvaya Mantra (Prapatti)

I'm pretty content now.

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Valp is out of my life

I'm not taking the mood stabilizer Valp any more. I'm just taking an anti-psychotic drug Solian, which is of a very minimal dosage.

A few would like me to go mad but I have crossed that stage a long time back. I don't hate them or pity them or worry about them. Everyone is the architect of his or her own destiny.

I have decided to play chess for atleast half an hour daily. I have found that I might be having 'Executive functions disorder' which is not being able to do things like organizing, planning, prioritizing etc. When I was a kid, I was not at all interested in studies but I could still pass or be above average because I was good in games and sports. That was nearly 20 years ago. After that, I have never really taken up any sports that sharpens my intelligence. Now, I'm going to start exercising my brain again so that I can get things done better in my job.

I'm chanting the Dvaya mantra 54+ times daily. I'm expecting it to get me out of Solian dependency. Let's see how I'm in 48 days. Already, it is 3rd or 4th day.

I have taught the mantra to my mom. I think she will get better from now on.