Had some sweet sleep.

Life's a comedy. You try to help and people call you blase, judgemental and what not.

Maybe I am blase and judgemental. But I don't waste my time on polite words. When I give a tip, I try my best to see their problem and give it my best shot. A counselor will charge Rs.1000 for such a suggestion.

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Dhoni is engaged and I am not. :-(

I had a girl friend before all others but now all my friends are married and I am still single. :-(

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To me, life is both simple and complicated. Simple, in the sense that, I have no doubts whatsoever. Complicated, in the sense that I don't know how the transformation will be from my conscious yoga practice to the unconscious sharanagathi state.

I'm rooting for Paraguay to win the Football World Cup.

Do I know where Paraguay is on the world map? No :-(

But it seems lingerie model Larissa Riquelme has pledged to run naked "with my body painted with the colours of Paraguay" if her country wins the World Cup in South Africa.

I feel bad Japan crashed out and no model from there came forward. :-(

(They have the simplest flag...hehehe)

I think I have Schizophrenia.

I have gone too deep inside myself that I cannot relate to others. Life is too complex and I don't know if it is getting better or worse. I don't know if I will ever come out of the dark tunnel of depression.

But I'm happy with whatever I have. I have no regrets.

In these moments, I live like holding onto a 10,000Volts wire. I'm like a deer on the road in a night blinded and stunned by a fast-approaching car...just too retarded to move. This is something that was partly imposed upon and partly voluntarily taken up.

I'm a speck of dust in the grand scheme of things in the universe but yet I'm made to feel important by those around me for which I'm grateful.

Sanity is a thing I daily confront with. A remembrance of my childhood when life was all meaningful gives me strength to continue. I will never commit suicide because I will never quit.

I have scheduled to publish this post after many years, hopefully after I die. That's for the general public. But I know some are getting a sneak preview of it already...LOL

I want to tell you something...something what my counselor told me...'Don't feel bad if you are afraid or lonely or depressed to the end of life. It's only such people who can really appreciate the blessings of life.'

If you are looking for a miracle, see that life is a miracle.