Hasta Manana (until tomorrow)

I just want to stop any interaction that can lead to my psychotic thoughts, which in turn affects my work. Actually, there's nothing psychotic about my facebook friends. But I get indirectly drawn into undesirable thoughts. My over-imaginative brain needs some fodder to keep chewing negativity. And so I just want to nip it in the bud. So I'm not going there till I become fully normal. I will be only posting here.

This makes me a very lonely person. But it's something I take voluntarily. If only the world around me was different. It will be...one day. Perhaps, a better way to put it is...if only the way I perceive the world was different. It will be...one day.

I stopped masturbating for a week and what a good thing it's been. I have more energy. Yes...I'm one of those guys walking on the road loaded and without having lost virginity (atleast no girl has physically done it to me).

Sorry

I mistakenly thought that my photo was disfigured. Actually, I was using Opera browser in Turbo mode and since it optimizes the page's images, it looked distorted.

But I don't why I cannot use an account registered with a different email than Gmail to upload images.

Look guys, please don't try to sabotage my work (if you are trying to). It's not going to help anyone.

6 keywords I plan to live by

Jnanan
Bhakthi
Svadharmam
Vairagyam
Dhyanam
Sharanam

What is all this above, you dumbo Arvy?

Never mind it...I was thinking that I should work 1 hour extra daily the rest of my life for all the time I have wasted. So I plan to do some volunteering by answering mental health questions. Dear Arvy, if you don't mind me asking you...

Arvy says: I know what you want to ask and I won't mind, go on, ask.

"When you are sometimes a nutcase yourself, how can you help others?"

First, being a nutcase myself occasionally (it's occasionally and not sometimes. Get your facts right before you ask me.), I can understand another nut. Or fruit. Moreover, I have come a long way and so can help.

Funny

That the 'great' Blogger wants to disfigure my puny little face. Wow...I'm honoured.

Having said that, this is going to be my routine...read a chapter from the Bhagavad Gita, listen to the Sundara Kandam, live by LUCK, listen to the Vishnu Sahasranama and repeat the Grace affirmation.

LUCK for your information is

Long
Uninterrupted
Content
Krishna Unakke Preethi

Please don't waste your time on me.

Accept it, buddy Arvy

You are really not in one of your best of life times. You have certain things in mind, do some practices and hold something in your heart, all of which doesn't bring immediately a paisa to you. Yes...you can sleep without AC, live on the pavement, need just enough clothes to not get stones thrown on you and meals that can be obtained for free from temples. But is this practical? Your relatives look at you sympathetically and your friends probably are wondering what off the hand remark you are going to make. Is this the life you want or wanted?

Let me tell you...you have got to quit something and you have got to take up something. Quit playing games. I know that you cannot go on like this mistrusting everyone and everything. You make a nice video of Grace but you know that you are not putting your full belief into it. Even though you know that it is true. Will you panic? I don't know. I know that you will come out oneday but I only hope that you wouldn't have to pass through the panicking phase.

I think you should take up sewing clothes. Or baby-sit at a nursery. Because you have become too effeminate. You don't need a moustache. You need your breasts to swell.

Low intensity psychotic depression

That's my present diagnosis of myself.

After reading/hearing for 48 days Sundara Kandam, my manic bi-polar has gone. My BP went away after listening daily to Vishnu Sahasranama. But I still have some psychosis and depression. These two I expect to go by reading a chapter of Bhagavad Gita and doing 45 minutes of online volunteering daily. I'm also chanting the Dvaya Mantram 18 times just after I wake up and just before I go to sleep. At these two times, the brain is supposed to be in the alpha and beta state...a plastic state of mind. I expect some marked change within the next 48 days.

What does it mean not to be a manic-bipolar? It means I will not be emotionally super-charged suddenly and without a basis.

Grace

Grace is available for free, anytime, anywhere. Grace enters, when allowed inside. By letting in Grace, it is extended to others.