Look at the problem I have...I really don't want to be a narcissist or anything like that. I want attention, again not the kind of attention like fame. I once had that and or thought I had that.

I only want a simple life....walking under the trees, listening to music, palying games, sitting at the beach, romancing with a girl (ok...maybe this isn't really simple...LOL)

I may appear to be cold-hearted but I'm not. I'm like everyone else. I have my failings which I sincerely try to remove. But it isn't a overnight job. I really don't know when. It's not as if I'm enjoying all the time. I get pain every now and then but I'm glad that it's frequency is getting lower and lower. One-day I know that I will be in harmony fully with those around me. I request your patience and participation with me. It's because it's a 2 way process.