A big sorry to my managers for spoiling the sleep. I think reading this wouldn't be as bad as you think. You may even like it.
You may have already guessed where I stole the blog title from. Or atleast seen it when I search now. It comes from Viktor Frankl's ''Man's search for meaning".
My world radar tells me that all is fine and that there is peace, quiet and cool atmosphere in my world. Wondering how I got the info? No, not from any hired service but rather from the source within. . .I'm talking about my body. My body is peaceful, quiet and cool. Look at it this way. . .any problem out there gets reflected in our body. If we can see someone anxious, we become anxious as well. If someone is restless out there, a part of our body starts twitching. Maybe these aren't really a good proof but I'm really not in a mood to explain everything.
Does that mean that all the problems are gone when I feel so peaceful, quiet and cool. Yes and no. Yes, in the sense that my world is becoming almost alright. But there are as many worlds as there are souls. Your world is different from mine. You are at the center of your world just as I'm at the center of my world. You are like one of the planets circling around the sun in my world just like I'm one of the planets circling around the sun in your world. There is however only one universe. If you want to know who is at the center of that universe, try connecting the dots of the different suns (souls) in the different worlds. Unclear? Don't worry, it's unclear to me as well.
I wanted to write about being pro-active. If there are some apples in the tree and you are hungry, you can either wait for them to fall down - or - you can go get them. There was a point in my recovery from depression when I started realizing that the obstacles that I was facing were imaginary or which existed because I contributed to it in some way. All I had to do was, do the limited number of things to get out of the rut. I'm 2 weeks away from being off my depression medicine, forever. While I didn't keep up the appointment with my doctor for the past two months since the previous one left the hospital and it was difficult to explain everything to the new one to get the right dosage, I have my reasons for ending the drug intake. I'm doing Pathanjali Yoga, which controls the mind and thus my psychotic thoughts as well. I'm also planning to limit the time I do my web development stuff since it's more of a right-brained rational activity. As a concrete proof, my body, as I mentioned earlier, including my head, is cool. One more reason is that I have been progressively decreasing my dosage and so this time also, it's a gradual decrease. but this time to zero. Anyway, the point I want to make is, when you are at the penultimate stage of getting out of whatever problem you are in life, you won't be having any real obstacles but it will also be true that things will not fall into your lap. In Chess analogy, suppose you are materially up (which at the Grandmasters level is the difference between victory and defeat), you don't waste your time trying to gain more pieces or get into a better position - you just go for the standard end-game moves and it is likely that the opponent will concede (or you can bring it to an indecent check-mate). The funny thing is that you will find your last opponent as your ego.
BTW, I cannot help mentioning that the Jews, who are supposed to be the chosen people, are today like an out-caste in the world. Today's Jews are fighting the same people who once liberated them. Viktor Frankl will be turning in his grave. Jews need to realize that the world or nature isn't always condescending - you only have to look at the Tsunami and Earthquake that Japan has had recently - you would expect that nature would never ever hurt the Japanese after the Atom bomb. The Japanese are wise enough to pacify the nature and one would expect the Jews to be smart enough to pacify the world - their world (as against my world or any Tom, Dick and Harry Potter's world).
You may have already guessed where I stole the blog title from. Or atleast seen it when I search now. It comes from Viktor Frankl's ''Man's search for meaning".
My world radar tells me that all is fine and that there is peace, quiet and cool atmosphere in my world. Wondering how I got the info? No, not from any hired service but rather from the source within. . .I'm talking about my body. My body is peaceful, quiet and cool. Look at it this way. . .any problem out there gets reflected in our body. If we can see someone anxious, we become anxious as well. If someone is restless out there, a part of our body starts twitching. Maybe these aren't really a good proof but I'm really not in a mood to explain everything.
Does that mean that all the problems are gone when I feel so peaceful, quiet and cool. Yes and no. Yes, in the sense that my world is becoming almost alright. But there are as many worlds as there are souls. Your world is different from mine. You are at the center of your world just as I'm at the center of my world. You are like one of the planets circling around the sun in my world just like I'm one of the planets circling around the sun in your world. There is however only one universe. If you want to know who is at the center of that universe, try connecting the dots of the different suns (souls) in the different worlds. Unclear? Don't worry, it's unclear to me as well.
I wanted to write about being pro-active. If there are some apples in the tree and you are hungry, you can either wait for them to fall down - or - you can go get them. There was a point in my recovery from depression when I started realizing that the obstacles that I was facing were imaginary or which existed because I contributed to it in some way. All I had to do was, do the limited number of things to get out of the rut. I'm 2 weeks away from being off my depression medicine, forever. While I didn't keep up the appointment with my doctor for the past two months since the previous one left the hospital and it was difficult to explain everything to the new one to get the right dosage, I have my reasons for ending the drug intake. I'm doing Pathanjali Yoga, which controls the mind and thus my psychotic thoughts as well. I'm also planning to limit the time I do my web development stuff since it's more of a right-brained rational activity. As a concrete proof, my body, as I mentioned earlier, including my head, is cool. One more reason is that I have been progressively decreasing my dosage and so this time also, it's a gradual decrease. but this time to zero. Anyway, the point I want to make is, when you are at the penultimate stage of getting out of whatever problem you are in life, you won't be having any real obstacles but it will also be true that things will not fall into your lap. In Chess analogy, suppose you are materially up (which at the Grandmasters level is the difference between victory and defeat), you don't waste your time trying to gain more pieces or get into a better position - you just go for the standard end-game moves and it is likely that the opponent will concede (or you can bring it to an indecent check-mate). The funny thing is that you will find your last opponent as your ego.
BTW, I cannot help mentioning that the Jews, who are supposed to be the chosen people, are today like an out-caste in the world. Today's Jews are fighting the same people who once liberated them. Viktor Frankl will be turning in his grave. Jews need to realize that the world or nature isn't always condescending - you only have to look at the Tsunami and Earthquake that Japan has had recently - you would expect that nature would never ever hurt the Japanese after the Atom bomb. The Japanese are wise enough to pacify the nature and one would expect the Jews to be smart enough to pacify the world - their world (as against my world or any Tom, Dick and Harry Potter's world).
