Refuged in my job life

I just have to focus on my job and things will fall into place, both for myself and in fulfilling my duties to those around me. When I concentrate on my job only, the first advantage is peace of mind. Then comes monetary gain. It also means that I will not be interfering or messing up in other people's lives and their jobs. And bloody hell...the truth of the matter is that I don't have to sweat it out in some horrid work conditions like some people have to. The only thing for me is to handle my loneliness, the self-doubts that keep creeping in occasionally and the little bit of bodily pain that I get sometimes. I go to Facebook because of this loneliness but the problem is that it's not easy to simply watch and not participate in the discussions. And if one starts to discuss, one gets dragged into a lot of emotional issues. Facebook is a Pavlov dog syndrome that I have and to replace it, I might replay a inspiring recording over and over again to get me back to work. As for my self-doubts, I'm at a point where even discussions with my counselor or reading a quote or scriptural text doesn't take me any further. So I just have to go on giving myself time and take things easily. The occasional bodily pain that I get is something that I have to go through mindfully. But I have started on my way already. For me now, doing my job is taking refuge and even though I get bumped often that puts me back on track, I'm enjoying it. :)

Removed some of my FB friends

I have removed some of my FB friends. It was difficult to do so because they might feel offended or left out. But I was having friends who I had no idea of. I mean, it's easy to fake talking nicely on the net on things of mutual interest. I do not suspect any one of them in particular and while one can make out if a person is faking it or not in the long run with or without some observation, the damage might well have happened before then. And someone might do a terrorist act faking it as coming from my computer, email and what not. Honestly, I felt that some of them might be deeply hurt but they were also at risk of being framed. This is what life is sometimes about, we need to be adapting to changing circumstances, atleast till there is no necessity for these precautions.