I start off by settling my debts to the society (that helped me freely when I was depressed and incapable of helping myself) by doing some voluntary work. Actually, I work at the pace of a retard but I think it's okay.
Then I try to look after my tummy i.e earn atleast something to feed, clothe and provide the room rent (and perhaps the internet charge as well). I'm doing a software online job for about an hour. Since I believe that I have Attention Deficit Disorder, I do it for only 45 minutes (nice excuse :-)) But the attention deficit that I have gets compensated by the slightly greater concentration power that I have. I don't know...maybe it's related only to the domain of software where I have this sort of concentration level. I can work on software only for an hour and after this, it becomes difficult to concentrate. Web design and development is a great field but I don't have the same amount of interest as in writing. There is one more reason. I'm still psychotic and staying too long trying to debug makes me wonder if there is hacking and sabotage going on. I can stand it for 1 hour and anyway, if anything goes wrong, I can recover.
Whatever I will earn from writing will go to my family and perhaps friends.
I believe that I can be a good writer but a career like writing is such a crazy thing to take up in India. India is basically a service oriented country where people generally play safe by taking up careers that gives a steady income, even if it is not to one's liking and requires working terribly hard. My mother and sister have slowly come to accept it. It's me who is still a bit apprehensive. I sure like the many aspects of writing. My counselor who is himself a writer and a critic says my writing style is good. My aunt who was an English literature teacher a long time back says she likes my writing. I wouldn't be as hesitant as I'm if I was like how I was many years back. Again, my hesitation is more of a caution than a fear of asserting my way out of the hell hole that I'm in. I know very well that, just as in spirituality where I had to accept certain things on faith, I have got to write to become and be a writer. The nice thing is that it's become a necessity (and necessity's the mother of all inventions).
Then I try to look after my tummy i.e earn atleast something to feed, clothe and provide the room rent (and perhaps the internet charge as well). I'm doing a software online job for about an hour. Since I believe that I have Attention Deficit Disorder, I do it for only 45 minutes (nice excuse :-)) But the attention deficit that I have gets compensated by the slightly greater concentration power that I have. I don't know...maybe it's related only to the domain of software where I have this sort of concentration level. I can work on software only for an hour and after this, it becomes difficult to concentrate. Web design and development is a great field but I don't have the same amount of interest as in writing. There is one more reason. I'm still psychotic and staying too long trying to debug makes me wonder if there is hacking and sabotage going on. I can stand it for 1 hour and anyway, if anything goes wrong, I can recover.
Whatever I will earn from writing will go to my family and perhaps friends.
I believe that I can be a good writer but a career like writing is such a crazy thing to take up in India. India is basically a service oriented country where people generally play safe by taking up careers that gives a steady income, even if it is not to one's liking and requires working terribly hard. My mother and sister have slowly come to accept it. It's me who is still a bit apprehensive. I sure like the many aspects of writing. My counselor who is himself a writer and a critic says my writing style is good. My aunt who was an English literature teacher a long time back says she likes my writing. I wouldn't be as hesitant as I'm if I was like how I was many years back. Again, my hesitation is more of a caution than a fear of asserting my way out of the hell hole that I'm in. I know very well that, just as in spirituality where I had to accept certain things on faith, I have got to write to become and be a writer. The nice thing is that it's become a necessity (and necessity's the mother of all inventions).
