Sunday, October 2, 2011

The cost of being straight-forward

It's not as if I get a sadistic element of joy from speaking my mind negatively. Speaking the mind in a negative way is a sure-fire way of losing friends and winning new ones (only to lose them also).

It's not as if I don't value any friendship high enough not to worry losing it. I also don't support enemies of my friends in order to get their friendship. The way I treat another online is the way I treat my mom or sister or even myself.

Perhaps it is the way a brotherhood or sorority grows by first eliminating the bad ego. This is supposed to happen in some army. Even though I do it, I don't agree 100% with it. I will soon oneday stop it. There are 2 ways that one can live good - by fighting the evil and/or supporting the good. Fighting the evil is a lower form of goodness from which everyone has to graduate to the higher form of goodness by supporitng the good. Evil collapses and implodes under it's own weight when there is no support for or attention to it. The relief is that one wouldn't be reminded of one's own negativity since everything that happens out there is a reflection of some area, however small, within oneself. I can see that one of my FB friends is doing this.

Perhaps after 7 days when I would have stopped taking the anti-psychotic drug, I wouldn't be bitching any more :)

With only a 'dry mouth' (it's actually a physical ailment, not the 'bad mouth' I talked about now. . .lol), I'm inching towards being wealthy, even though my bank balance is only Rs.2000, since Health is Wealth.