An Appeal

Okay, buddy and buddies...I know that you are reading my blogs...even reading this as I type.

Okay...I don't want to digress. You may or may not hate me but I always regard you as my equal and friend. I don't blame you for loathing me and some of you loathe those around me. Even my friends don't like me 100% and neither do all of you hate me 100%. Let's all forget this. I'm really sorry for being an arsehole and I request you to forgive me and those who are rallying around me. They will not hurt you unless you provoke them and I'm sure they just want to live a peaceful life as well. I don't care about whatever new world order there is and I'm sure you also don't care. Maybe this will be the ending of a life's dream or ambition for you. Maybe not. But I can tell you that I have been through such a loss 16 years back. Yes, it's Varusham 16 for me. But today I have come to believe that there exists something more than such a passionate love. For me it was a girl. For you, it may be power or intelligence or creativity or whatever. You don't have to go through 16 years to regain what you are willing to sacrifice for peace and love. If you let go, the world will return it back some time. You will also get the bonus of the love of everyone along with it. :-)

What I really want and need

As soon as the New Year 2011 begins, I wish to go back to my life I led some 16-17 years ago. What I was then is the real me and not all these things that I wear for the time being for whatever reasons. I don't want to wear some mask or avatar. I wish my friends to relieve whatever conceptions they have of me and give me a peaceful retirement back to my old self. Ofcourse as my old neighbour told me a couple of days back, it is not advisable to eat a stale idli that was meant for breakfast, at supper. I don't want and can't have the same life I had back then, the reason being that if it was really the one for me, I would not have lost it. I'm open to a new dish or life and maybe even a fresh idli or girl friend. This is the only request I make to my friends and I have absolute belief that this will stop all the madness that is there around me now.

Girls............I'm not an alpha dog!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I believe that 2 things cannot be hidden or stopped always. One is truth and the other requires some resting in a room.

Okay...I might have flirted (I say 'might'). I also know some may have used the oldest trick of passion in laying the trap (Again I say 'may'). I'm really sorry if I have unintentionally built up any hype over me. But let's get some things straight.

I'm not as attractive as you think I'm. I'm not sure if any girl really knows the real me. Half the girls in the street don't even give me a second glance. Of the remaining half all except one, I don't give a second glance because they are not the one destined for me.

And this girl will also not be some alpha doggie. She will not be the most beautiful or desired woman in the world. I got this clear in my head the day I talked to my counselor. I find many women attractive and when I get one such attractive woman who also finds me attractive and we get into a relationship, what will I do when I find the next attractive one? I need some basic chemistry so that I can have some passion with her. But after that, it's just something willed by the universe.

In the old forum, a guy (don't want to name him but I like him very much) wanted to know my choice of  Miss Russia. I had a difficult time to choose because I had no basis to choose it on. Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder.

Please...I don't say this from humility. If you are a girl liking me, thanks but there is a better one who is destined just for you. If you are the one for me, love will find it's way.

Svabhava

Svabhava

Closely related to Svadharma is the idea of Svabhava.

Sva-bhava means 'Self-nature'. The recommendation given by many philosophers, spiritualists, counselors etc. to be happy is to get an answer to 'Who am I?".

There can be 3 identities that anyone takes in life.

1. Atman (Self)
2. Svabhava (Self-nature)
3. Ahamkaaram (Ego)

The Self has no qualities that our senses can perceive and is established in unity. The Self-nature has qualities that our senses can perceive and is based on unity in diversity. The Ego has qualities that our senses can perceive and is based on diversity. Objectively, each of the 3 serves some purpose. Even Ego, which in common understanding is regarded negatively serves the purpose of bringing individuality or ID without which one cannot even believe that one is existing in this world. After birth in this world, during the forward journey, the identity changes from the Self to the Self-nature to the Ego and then on the return journey from the Ego to the Self-nature to the Self.