Don't know if people hate me on facebook. It's one good thing compared to Pravda where if I make any careless post, I get drawn into flame wars.

Some people may think that I'm bad but if they were in my shoes, they will know that I do not live a life that is a bed of roses.

I live in a darkness inside myself. It's the deepest recess of the mind from which I peek out into the world without any idea of what is real or imaginary.

One can ask...who is asking you to live like this? I say...how else do you expect me to live when I have been back-stabbed, have no guarantee of life and lost in a world that makes no sense. I may or may not come out of this darkness but I don't complain much. It's because my debts to others or life or the world is getting reduced day by day and I can make myself believe every now and then that I do matter in whatever way. I may have screwed someone but Archana screwed me as well. There ends the debt I owe to others. Too bad if others cannot accept this logic...they have to examine their own karma and see who they have screwed and got screwed.

 Good night...

Damn it. This addiction to facebook is really frustrating. I don't make any intelligent conversation with anyone because I cannot relate with anyone.

I just want to spend my time working...getting lost in work. But I have still not got into the flow.

I don't want to disturb others with my own psychological problems. But I have no idea if I'm of use to others or a liability. There seems to be just a thin line of difference.

All this is idle talk. As Balqis says...

Verily Allah does not change a people's condition, unless they change what is in their inner self .

On with my journey...

mouna raagam

I have become addicted to the facebook so much that it's frustrating me. And what I say may be offending and some of my friends are bound to get irritated with my posts. I don't want to be like dominating or attention-grabbing.

So what's the alternative to FB and typing like this over here?

One thing is...when I become better involved with my work, it will automatically divert me away from FB and blogger. But getting to start working is a hurdle, though a very small one.

I have started applying Shri-Charanam on my forehead as a mark of practicing ananya bhakthi.

People may think that I try to influence things from my ego. But they have to examine whether they are any better than me to cast the first stone on me. My world's something different from what I post in Facebook. Just like Pravda, I will grow out of Facebook one-day.

The Advaitins who use Aham-Brahmasmi, to claim that they are God, the Vishista-Advaitins who interpret Seshatvam as being a slave to God and the Dvaitins who say that God is something remote are all wrong. The knowledge of God is unnecessary to love another though it can be of aid. Loving another is common-sense, pragmatic, a must and pays-off fast. One can pursue God in leisure.

All the world's a stage,
And all the men and women merely players:
They have their exits and their entrances;

~ Sheikh'spear