My mother's got a growth inside her skull. Luckily and thankfully, it isn't a tumour.
I have played down the significance of it to my mother and she does the same thing to me, except rarely when she mentions it in anger. I cannot nevertheless help thinking occasionally about it a a time-bomb.
My mother is only half-alive. A part of her consciousness has already transcended this world.
What bothers me a little is that even the MR scan was paid by my sister. In case of a major operation, she would have to be the one financing it. But I believe that the growth in her is psycho-somatic. The only thing I can do is to make sure that she is happy and expect the growth to dissolve by itself. There have been such cases reported.
It's also a bother for me of how I will be after she dies. The other day, my mother took 2 promises from me. That I will not commit suicide after she dies and that I will do Gaya Shraddham for her and my father after her death. I was very glad that she took such a promise. It was one thing which had been bothering me. The reason I'm alive these days is only for her and it did occur to me that I might do anything after her death. And I didn't like the thought. She has asked me to prove to the world that I can live happily. It will no doubt be terrible after her death but I think I would be able to manage somehow.
I have played down the significance of it to my mother and she does the same thing to me, except rarely when she mentions it in anger. I cannot nevertheless help thinking occasionally about it a a time-bomb.
My mother is only half-alive. A part of her consciousness has already transcended this world.
What bothers me a little is that even the MR scan was paid by my sister. In case of a major operation, she would have to be the one financing it. But I believe that the growth in her is psycho-somatic. The only thing I can do is to make sure that she is happy and expect the growth to dissolve by itself. There have been such cases reported.
It's also a bother for me of how I will be after she dies. The other day, my mother took 2 promises from me. That I will not commit suicide after she dies and that I will do Gaya Shraddham for her and my father after her death. I was very glad that she took such a promise. It was one thing which had been bothering me. The reason I'm alive these days is only for her and it did occur to me that I might do anything after her death. And I didn't like the thought. She has asked me to prove to the world that I can live happily. It will no doubt be terrible after her death but I think I would be able to manage somehow.
