Some time back, I had created a list of 4 steps to follow to recovery which I got from the way I get relieved from headaches. Those are 1)not interfering in unnecessary matters, 2)take rest, 3)listen to charam sloka and 4)continue taking the mood-stabilizing drug.
I have been able to do the first 3 with reasonable success. But I guess a little flaw seems to be there in the 4th because it doesn't help me in any way even though it keeps me going as I'm. Well..I'm really not sure but this seems to be the case. Since I have also become serious in my job and what stops me from going full throttle in my job is the tendency of resistance to change from the past, when i asked how to improve my wok life, he suggested that I do some affirmations. Now, I'm not comfortable writing my own affirmations and so when I looked for an outside source, the Bhagavad Gita was an obvious source. So I have decided to listen to a recording of some key verses that help me get over my static inertia daily in the morning for some 40 days. By then I will be reducing the drug intake as my doctor suggested and then afterwards, I will only not listen regularly but only whenever I do not wok properly, till the time when I will be totally out of my drug intake. I estimate this to be around less than 6 months. I think that the reason I'm still uncomfortable is because of the mood-stabilizer. It's because it gives me an artificial, although necessary, sense of security. While the drug shoots down 80-99% of the problems, the remaining manifests as a side-effect and problems seem to be there around me. The decrease in dosages later will be compensated y listening to those verses. I don't mean to say that someone can be normal only without any drug. My mom takes 10 tablet but yet she is alright. As the 2, the drug intake an the affirmation by the verses cancel each other, I will get out of the remaining depressive tendencies. Once I'm fully out after 6 months, I can interact normally and also start working true to my potential. I'm not creating another new milestone to escape facing something else. This looks very rational to me. Even though I have some doubts, I'm going to just follow with the confidence that even this doubt is addressed in the verses. The verses are incisive an effective which I expect to be the Crosin of the headache of depression.
