I understood the power and finality of action (although not in a way that I liked that time), when my girl friend married another.
There are certain things in life which are irreversible (reminds me of the song of the Italian movie by that name) and there are certain things which are reversible (like going back to choose another way while driving).
My setting her free was merely a mock-up since I never in my wildest dreams thought that they she will even think of herself with another man. But I was thinking that she was just not in her right mind and she will soon understand what was happening.
When she told me that she was married, the curtain came down. People have different standards in different cultures when to know that a relationship is over, and even within a culture, it varies depending on the individual and in an individual itself, depending on the time and place. In the west, the same Demi Moore's standards vary in 'The Ghost' and the 'The Indecent Proposal'. For me, when my girl friend married another, it was the end.
Many times it came across my mind if I might go back to her. A few times I even searched for her just out of curiosity in social networks. But I always held that it is gone forever. that is why even when once I did find her on a social network, I didn't contact her. I also understood that she wouldn't really like to remember the old times and maybe she even fears me that I might harm her marriage out of anger. I was irked a little bit when I saw her display of affection to her father online after all we had gone through but then she was his daughter before my girl friend. Also, she is a very strong willed girl who was proud to be a Leo. These things wouldn't have really mattered if only we were right for each other.
The decisive action that she took or forced to take, though final, isn't as simple as could be taken in a moment and forgotten later. She had told me in her letters all along that she was getting pressurized everyday. Even when the problem came, things might have been salvaged if only I had also not blown up the trust she had had on me. But I don't blame myself because we were just not made for each other and she must have felt greatly relieved after having taken the decision to get out of the relationship. But then, it is not easy to forget in a day what was the dream of 3 years. It reminds me of the song in the movie 'Nenjil Oar Aalayam'...'Ninaipadhellaam Nadandhuvittaal...' and I (funnily) have to console myself with 'Engirundhaalum Vaazhga..'
Let me tell you, it was a tragedy (like BeeGees sings).
I don't know if this blog is like that of Anne Frank's diary or the room I stay in is like that of Adolf Hitler's underground bunker. I just don't care as long as infinity.
There are certain things in life which are irreversible (reminds me of the song of the Italian movie by that name) and there are certain things which are reversible (like going back to choose another way while driving).
My setting her free was merely a mock-up since I never in my wildest dreams thought that they she will even think of herself with another man. But I was thinking that she was just not in her right mind and she will soon understand what was happening.
When she told me that she was married, the curtain came down. People have different standards in different cultures when to know that a relationship is over, and even within a culture, it varies depending on the individual and in an individual itself, depending on the time and place. In the west, the same Demi Moore's standards vary in 'The Ghost' and the 'The Indecent Proposal'. For me, when my girl friend married another, it was the end.
Many times it came across my mind if I might go back to her. A few times I even searched for her just out of curiosity in social networks. But I always held that it is gone forever. that is why even when once I did find her on a social network, I didn't contact her. I also understood that she wouldn't really like to remember the old times and maybe she even fears me that I might harm her marriage out of anger. I was irked a little bit when I saw her display of affection to her father online after all we had gone through but then she was his daughter before my girl friend. Also, she is a very strong willed girl who was proud to be a Leo. These things wouldn't have really mattered if only we were right for each other.
The decisive action that she took or forced to take, though final, isn't as simple as could be taken in a moment and forgotten later. She had told me in her letters all along that she was getting pressurized everyday. Even when the problem came, things might have been salvaged if only I had also not blown up the trust she had had on me. But I don't blame myself because we were just not made for each other and she must have felt greatly relieved after having taken the decision to get out of the relationship. But then, it is not easy to forget in a day what was the dream of 3 years. It reminds me of the song in the movie 'Nenjil Oar Aalayam'...'Ninaipadhellaam Nadandhuvittaal...' and I (funnily) have to console myself with 'Engirundhaalum Vaazhga..'
Let me tell you, it was a tragedy (like BeeGees sings).
I don't know if this blog is like that of Anne Frank's diary or the room I stay in is like that of Adolf Hitler's underground bunker. I just don't care as long as infinity.
