So...

What did you want to do with me? Arrest me? Or send someone after me? Or...excuse me, I'm not so bright to think of other reasons but there could well be many.

Thanks m friend, for not wanting to act against an unarmed person.

That brings the question. . .was I really unarmed?

Okay, I will explain to you. I don't even read the Bhagavad Gita these days. I also don't take up violence consciously. Try to understand this well...what objective that violence achieves for the Kshattriya, non-violence achieves for the Brahmana. This is more of a responsibility than a strategy. Just as waging a righteous war is the purpose of a Kshattriya, achieving peace is the purpose of a Brahmana. You can hate me like my cousin, who says, 'I can't stand to look at him.' but since Aarjavam or being straight-forward is also a duty of a Brahmana, I have to say this.

Buddy, I really don't consider you as my enemy. I don't say this from a holier than thou attitude but because, like everyone, I'm supposed to love everyone. Seriously, I don't give a damn to anything in this life but I have to move on with life.

You don't need to like me. You don't need to love me. You are free to hate me. You are free to be happy.

Hi

Do not make it worser than what it already is.

I will never back-track.

Don't make it impossible for me to help you.

You are welcome to go to hell if you think I say this with arrogance.

If I make a wrong these days, I don't turn around - I just expect to experience the pain of one more negative karma. I have done a lot of correcting myself and I'm now too too tired to keep track of my mistakes. You cannot keep analysing after a point - the return on investment doesn't justify it. I have got the major part of my life course figured out and it's enough to get me across with some bruises here and there, every now and then.

My bro-in-law finds India bad. He complains about the dirt, the poor traffic regulations, the people doing business on pavements etc. What he wouldn't want to acknowledge is that India is feeding him now. He couldn't get a job in US for almost a year and once he came here, he got into a nice job thanks to a recommendation. I wonder why he doesn't complain about people getting jobs through recommendation in India while it is difficult in America. Ofcourse, Americans do corruption at a larger scale and white-collar service and executive jobs are more transparent. I crudely predict that he will get kicked out from his job in 6 months. He is at the height of first-time material success and that is when the hardest blow comes.

It has come for my sister. My sister and me are buddies now, atleast 50%. It has come after her hubby went to see a lawyer. And I was the messenger who has kept my bro-in-law from imagining that he can do whatever he pleases and did some counselling to my sister. My sister, for her part, has accepted me with some effort, who once threatenned her. The funny thing is, my bro-in-law is now where my sister was a year back. Occasionally, it is pleasing to see how people rise-fall-rise as expected and occasionally, it is frustrating to see dimwits walking around me with pomp and show. I was a dimwit once. When I feel all anger and hatred swell up inside me, I repeat inside myself 'Rama' to forgive, or atleast, forget those who offend me. I also repeat it as much as possible for future needs.  Personally, when it comes to devotion, Ramayana suites me more than Shrimadh Bhagavatham. Rama is as cool as moon and that is why he is called Rama-Chandra. I have got the air-conditioner sending cool air and my lips saying 'Rama Rama Rama...' as I go to ZZZ...

Allow me to volunteer

I don't intend to make money out of volunteering. I also intend to use my software knowledge for the sole purpose of helping out those who cannot help themselves. Please don't let me use it for creating a big headache for you. I hope you have enough honour in you to accept this. Thanks.

To OWS

If the OWS want a result like in Libya or India (I don't mean deposing the leader or putting the corrupt in Jail but get whatever good change that they need), they have to realize that they are not going to get help from the media like the internet, telecom or satellites because these are controlled by those who don't want the change. They also have to realize one more thing.

The time they spend protesting isn't productive time. They can also be crippled financially by those in power. It might be a small issue to sell a car or a poperty initially, but soon there will be nothing more to sell except oneself, which is something best avoided.

I think it would be a good idea if the OWS protesters rope in and collaborate with the NGOs. The problem today is job creation and proper wages. If the government isn't capable of doing it, OWS protesters can do it with the help of NGOs. NGOs are well organised in the western world and OWS has got some base by now. While a NGO is thought of as a well-off person helping out the not so well-off, the OWS protesters can create something that is in-between the corporate greed and the NGO philanthropy and thus make their lives viable while they are bringing about the change. The Government will then give them the serious attention that they deserve.

I want to reiterate that protesting, while useful, has its' limitations since it is bordering on hate. Better than pulling down the rich, corrupt or otherwise, is to rise up to them and make them take note of oneself.

To whomsoever it may concern

You are welcome to my club.

On American troops lining up on Pakistan tribal region

I think it's a bad idea for Americans to engage militants inside Pakistan.

I don't doubt that a section of Pakistani eastablishment is aiding the militants. There was the Khalistan terrorist movement in Punjab which got finance from America based Sikhs. When that didn't dismember India, Pakistan started the Kashmir terrorism. What Pakistan is reaping today in terms of violence and instability is what it sowed back then. I do not enjoy Pakistan's discomfiture and neither do a majority of Indians.

Pakistan alone can untie the knot that she has created. It's dangerous and insolent behaviour for other countries to interfere in her internal affairs. The Pakistani Army General's statement that Pakistan is a nuclear country cannot be discounted but not for his belligerant reasons. Pakistan can hardly hit back at America now and she can't morally target India for what Americans are doing. The critical point to note is that today there is atleast a section of the Pakistani people who are willing to address the terrorism issue. If they get engaged in another front, they cannot safeguard the nukes or stop militants from entering Kashmir with impunity.

Pakistan has for all purposes fallen into the hands of the Chinese, which isn't good for India or America. Pakistan doesn't need American aid anymore - Americans cannot afford it these days while Chinese have a cash surplus. While America can say that they don't need Pakistani help any more since militancy has largely been eliminated, if Americans get entangled inside Pakistan, they will lose all the gains they have got till now in Afghanistan. The militants will simply have free and equal access in Afghanistan and Pakistan.

It's more important for India than America since India has to live with the aftermath of any war as compared to America which can get back temporarily to another continent. I want to forewarn Indians about one issue. Just like a Khalistan terrorism, when it failed, transformed into a well-organized Kashmiri terrorism, Kashmiri terrorism can transform into a well-organized Maoist terrorism unless it is checked as soon as possible. It is vital to break any Kashmiri-Maoist nexus. Kashmiri terrorism is almost dead but those who want to break India won't keep idle for long - they will look for a new opening. The opening most likely to be is the North-Eastern Indian states - there are every indications for the growth of well-organised terrorism there. If Indians today alienate Pakistan, they can be rest assured that all the know-how, resources etc. of the declining Kashmiri terrorists will be passed on to the Maoists. I'm not against China - I'm merely stating an observation as a concerned Indian citizen. If the good and friendly people in Pakistan are not acknowledged and supported, they cannot help India in any way. A safe and secure Pakistan is always in the best interests of India.

My life, from Astrology

I wasn't a believer in Astrology till recently. I believe our lives are influenced by time brought about by the different arrangement of the constellations.

Some time back, I wrote that I would die soon. I have got a better understanding now.

I will live till I'm 72 years old. I will be active till I'm 54 years old. When my birthday comes in a couple of months, I will be completing 50% of my life journey. What is my age now?

(The question in the previous paragraph is supposed to be a funny reproduction of school maths question.)

I spent my first 18 years as a carefree child. I had the best time of my life when I was 17 and a 1/2 years old. The next 18 years of Depression has been horrible, to put it mildly. However, I have beeen having the greatest development these months, just as 18 years back. I'm making hay while the sun shines since I know that the favourable conditions wouldn't last long - it's going to change after 2 months. But it wouldn't matter since as I said earlier, I would have made the hay by then. I will be working sincerely for another 18 years and then it will be retirement. The challenge for me these 18 years will be to work spiritedly and fulfil my responsibilities inspite of ageing. When I reach 54, the challenge will be in coming to terms with leaving the world. I'm making plans for my life accordingly. Already, I have got a tip in the morning news paper for ageing - eat fruits. :D

Some of you people will die before my time, some about my time and some will outlive me. Being fore-warned is being fore-armed. If you are a friend of me, I would like you to take this as a serious note since I believe this to be 100% true.

Thank you

A hunter was being chased by a tiger. He found a tree nearby with an ape/bear on it. The ape/bear accomodated him knowing the danger he was in. When it became dark and the ape/bear was asleep, the tiger said to the hunter, "Push down the ape/bear. I will eat it instead and leave you alone. The hunter pushed down the ape/bear. When the ape/bear fell on the ground, the tiger said to it, "Look how ungrateful the hunter is. Climb up and push him down". The smart ape/bear agreed and climbed up. As it climbed up, the hunter who witnessed what happened below, began to perspire. When the ape/bear had safely climbed up, it told the hunter, "Don't worry. I will not push you down. You are my guest." The night and the tiger passed away.

When I heard that Archana was being forced against her will to marry someone else and that she wasn't sure of my love for her, I wrote "I need you, Archana" in my blood. My friend, Rakesh Ranjan, had suggested to me not to cut myself since he can bring blood from a chicken shop. When I wrote it, I somewhat felt that I was going to the extent of begging her. She proved it, when, as I called long-distance phone calls from Pune to Chennai with the little money that I had, by keeping down the receiver just like her parents did to my calls. I was thinking that she was on my side while she knew her priority.

Today, I can reasonably claim that I'm out of depression. Somewhere along these 14 years, I experienced unconditional love. For all the attention that the Pravda forum gave me, I reported that some undesirable elements were there to the police. I think I did it after some bomb blast. I haven't visited the forum for around 2 years and I don't intend to. They have got a Facebook page and I will be in touch through that. And ofcourse, there are some friends from Pravda already in my Facebook friend list. I don't know if my reporting the website could have got the forum black-listed or black-marked.

Today I achieved whatever I set out to do in the morning. Yes, I'm not yet earning but that will change soon. I might not be earning a lot but it will be enough to live decently. I don't have any physcal, mental, emotional or spiritual malady. Ofcourse, there are a lot of adjustments to be done but I'm okay enough now. I don't want to regret anything. I'm looking forward to the times ahead.

AIR

AIR is an acronym for America, India and Russia.

I believe that how AIR is i.e. how America, India and Russia deal with each other, is important in the near future. When there is balance and harmony within AIR, there will be a corresponding effect in the world and vice versa. It will also do a great deal of good to the 3 countries if they come together.

Statisticians can bring about a lot of interesting facts about what the 3 countries, if and when they come together, can add upto. Like how it was calculated for BRIC or BRICS. More than that, it will be coming together of ideas from the right, the middle and the left,like Capitalism, Socialism and Communism. Yes, I know that Communism is not the ruling party in Russia but Communism is to Russia what Buddhism is to India - both getting kicked out but never forgotten.

Now, I really don't like much the idea of groups getting formed in the world at the expense of the UN. It's also not my intention to sneak India between two super powers.

Let's see some reasons why the coming together of the 3 will benefit each of them. America and Russia are both descending in their power stature in the world - America because of the downgrading of it's economic status and Russia for not having a stable democratic political system after the collapse of the Soviet Union. India is ascending in living conditions but when a survey suggests that most Indians regard the winning of the Cricket World Cup as the achievement of the decade, one starts wondering. I believe that since Independence, India has achieved 50% of her potential. Today, we have quite enough money but still our cities, towns and villages are mismanaged. It's possible that India can call herself a super power in 2020.

AIR is not just a convenience but is a necessity for these 3. Steve Jobs has said that a Thomas Edison has done more to the world than Karl Mark or Neem Karoli Baba. Leaving aside idealogical warfare, suppose Edison, Marx and Baba come together to find a solution - wouldn't that just be fantastic?

The good thing for them is that they don't have big internal or external stumbling blocks though there will be minor irritants. The political AIR is as important to the world as the air is to the body. But just as too much air can cause harm to the body, too much importance given to AIR isn't good either. Ultimately, the General Assembly, not even the Security Council, in the UN should be able to call all the shots.

But if you ask me, while I believe that AIR is good enough in the immediate future, a Black African country joining the club will complete it in a lot of ways. By 'complete', I don't mean it in terms of importance but in terms of representation - if an alien asks for a sample, AIR plus a Black African country will give an idea what earth is all about. The sad thing is that presently there doesn't seem to be any one Black African country taking the initiative - this will change after 10 - 50 years.

This is perhaps the last post I will be making from the side-effects of a prescribed drug. Today is the last day I'm taking the psychiatric drug. These days, if and when I get some psychotic thoughts, I repeat a nice affirmation on grace to get back to normalcy.

I invite you to join me tomorrow in this blog since it will be when I'm supposed to be right in the head and without the side-effects of the drug. It is a big milestone for me and a moment for celebration.

The Pursuit of Happyness

Idea

What Idea???

Idea is. . .

I - Idea
d - delete
e - edit
a - add

And what is it supposed to mean?

It's an acronym I use for my work.

Now, Arv. . .pleazzzzz, no more acronyms???

Incidentally, it makes good sense and is beautiful.

You can use it for many things. . .design, development, problem-solving etc.

This is a few things that I associate with it.

The 'I' is capitalized, which means it's got a special status from the other three. Ofcourse, being the first term, it also gets to be attended to first.

Suppose you have got an Idea. Great. Now, in the Idea, there can be some undesirable elements - these you element by 'd' i.e. delete. Next, there can be certain things that you would like to modify i.e. edit. Finally, you can 'add' and this completes one iteration.

The special status for 'I' in 'Idea' is in the sense that you can delete or edit or add things but the Idea remains the same - kind of like the body can change but the soul remains the same. Idea is complete in itself - it's a recursive acronym, like PHP.

The order of the term is quite important. Call it Serendipity that it came like that. Everything starts with an Idea. Now, it's better to first delete the unwanted than add the useful items if you consider Idea as a container that's to be filled. It's easier to knock off the unwanted i.e. delete than examine something i.e. edit. It's also easier to edit what is present already than go fetch something to add.

'I' comes from intuition while 'd-e-a' comes from rationality. They are the Yin-Yang and right-brain -- left-brain. And the cyclic order of I-d-e-a is the 'Tao'.

One can also associate this with Hindu Trinity. 'I' is like 'Para-Brahman' and 'd-e-a' are like 'Shiva-Vishnu-Brahma'.

For design, one can take the I as a template or prototype from which one deletes, edits and adds items. For agile programming, one can say the 'I' as creating the first core product. For writing, 'I' can ofcourse be an idea from which one can later delete 'ego', edit for entertainment and add (action, description and dialogue - ADD)

4 more nights to go before I will be drugless.

Where does all this leave me? I'm wondering if I should do website design and development using this or write the novel professionally. Ican presently work nicely, with minor hiccups, for 1 session of 45 mins to 1 hour. I don't know how balanced my mind will be if I work for 6 hours like this, with psychotic thoughts of hackers. I guess I'm grossly over-estimating my problems. Anyway, I will be working for 1 session like this. Writing novel isn't easy either and it's difficult to explain to my mom that I'm working when I keep looking out through the window (quote used from elsewhere).

It will be one of the two. Let's see.

The cost of being straight-forward

It's not as if I get a sadistic element of joy from speaking my mind negatively. Speaking the mind in a negative way is a sure-fire way of losing friends and winning new ones (only to lose them also).

It's not as if I don't value any friendship high enough not to worry losing it. I also don't support enemies of my friends in order to get their friendship. The way I treat another online is the way I treat my mom or sister or even myself.

Perhaps it is the way a brotherhood or sorority grows by first eliminating the bad ego. This is supposed to happen in some army. Even though I do it, I don't agree 100% with it. I will soon oneday stop it. There are 2 ways that one can live good - by fighting the evil and/or supporting the good. Fighting the evil is a lower form of goodness from which everyone has to graduate to the higher form of goodness by supporitng the good. Evil collapses and implodes under it's own weight when there is no support for or attention to it. The relief is that one wouldn't be reminded of one's own negativity since everything that happens out there is a reflection of some area, however small, within oneself. I can see that one of my FB friends is doing this.

Perhaps after 7 days when I would have stopped taking the anti-psychotic drug, I wouldn't be bitching any more :)

With only a 'dry mouth' (it's actually a physical ailment, not the 'bad mouth' I talked about now. . .lol), I'm inching towards being wealthy, even though my bank balance is only Rs.2000, since Health is Wealth.