While we were talking yesterday, my sister was asking what my cousin was doing, and I think in a slip of tongue, she asked "avanum vudhavakaraya irukkana?" i.e "Is he also still useless?".
Myself and my sister, we don't get along. I have thrown coffee at her face while she had even called police to complain about it (american style...LOL)
It's a matter of sibling rivalry that has over time grown out of proportions and it has turned out very ugly, we both hitting each other behind the belt.
I like her kid though because I find him like my father and because a kid is a kid.
We both don't even talk to each other straight in the face. It's just a difference in the way we perceive things. Today she asked me why I was sitting dull and I made a sign not to interfere in my business. She is a nice person just like everyone else is. We stay clear of each other 99% of the times. In the remaining 1% time, I just let it pass whatever she says and she knows that if she needles me beyond a point, I will not hesitate to slit her throat.
She has no idea of how life is going to be in the future. She thinks that being a good professional in a multinational company will ensure a good life. For 8 years after her marriage, she didn't have a kid. I asked her to do the Sathya-Narayana Pooja because it is supposed to bless one with a baby and she immediately got a baby. Now, I'm not taking credit from them on giving birth to the baby because I know that they both went through a lot before, during and after the delivery. Not having a baby kept her humble though she had the tendency to think herself too successful. Now that she has got a beautiful baby, she is getting carried away again.
Her husband is jobless in the US for 5 months now while I'm daily making progress on the job-front, even though it is at a snail's pace. They don't seem to realize that they are heading towards hell while I'm getting out of it. Neither do I feel good nor bad that this is what is going to happen. It's everyone's Karma. I agree that she is a good worker but she doesn't have any wisdom, any devotion, any meditative practice to calm herself down or surrendering herself to God. So what's she got is 20%. But since she is atleast a skillful and honest worker, she will eventually get salvation.
She thinks that I'm materially poor and I think she is spiritually poor. This is the difference in perspective that creates friction between us.
It's always important to be at ease with the big picture. After-all, she is my father's and mother's daughter and in the end, I'm no better or worse than her. But I cannot accept her unless she appreciates who I'm. But that's not going to happen for a very long time and so we go in opposite directions.
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