What I really want and need

As soon as the New Year 2011 begins, I wish to go back to my life I led some 16-17 years ago. What I was then is the real me and not all these things that I wear for the time being for whatever reasons. I don't want to wear some mask or avatar. I wish my friends to relieve whatever conceptions they have of me and give me a peaceful retirement back to my old self. Ofcourse as my old neighbour told me a couple of days back, it is not advisable to eat a stale idli that was meant for breakfast, at supper. I don't want and can't have the same life I had back then, the reason being that if it was really the one for me, I would not have lost it. I'm open to a new dish or life and maybe even a fresh idli or girl friend. This is the only request I make to my friends and I have absolute belief that this will stop all the madness that is there around me now.